Okay, so last week I did not write and I have no excuse for myself, other than that I truly forgot.  Week 12 was a hard week and I found myself feeling a little overwhelmed about the whole weight-loss journey.  I had not felt this before and it was quite menacing; I felt very alone and sad and very, very tired.  I wondered if it was truly worth all the work I was putting into it and if I could ever realize my weight-loss goals.  I felt very frustrated and simiply down in the dumps.  I cared enough to work-out a little and keep tabs on my eating, but I truly was in a slump and didn't know if I was going to come out of it!!  I don't know if anyone has felt this way before, but I did and it was not fun.  My sweet husband kept reminding me that I am worth it and that I have come so far to get weighed down and it helped, but I needed to realize it for myself.  It is just hard to think that for a lifetime, I will be battling the bulge and always have weight issues.  I guess if you think about it in that light, it does seem pretty dark and grim, but then I got to thinking; I have come so far, I am better now than I was even  2 months ago.  I have a lifetime to live and be healthy instead of spending my time on the couch and feeling helpless.  I can exercise and change my life now so that I have a future with my family and not a lifetime of health problems.  I guess I am lucky that I can exercise and have the means to buy healthy food and have a suport system to help me out in this journey because there are a lot of people that cannot and do not have what I have.  I am really lucky and have been very blessed in my life.  When I thought a bout these things, a light went on in my head and I got it.  Sure, it may be tough and hard and a long journey, but I am worth it and my health is worth it!!!!  Bye, bye slump, please don't come back because I am on my way down on the scale and up in energy and life.

 

This week has been a little better, I have felt more energized and have been better about eating.  I have exercised a little more and was able to take my daughter to the zoo and be outside adn that helps boost anyone's spirits.  I did get the flu Weds- today and have felt very nauseated, so I did not workout 2 days ,but I did workout today and felt a lot better!!!  I feel a lot more hopeful and know that I can do this; it is not impossible!!  I was talking with one of my friends and she gave me a lot of encouragement to continue onward and she said to jsut take one day at a time and try to do you best each day.  It does seem a little easier as you take the small steps toward the big goal, instead of trying to swallow the entire thing all at once.  Just one step at a time and I know I can do it!!!